The Project. December 2013.Geneva
So, how are all these projects related to my weight? — You will probably ask.
I understand my past painful feelings quite well now, I understand why it was so difficult not to obsess about my appearance, slenderness. Good looks seemed to be like an account in my bank, like a key to freedom. On what else could I have leaned upon so confidently in those past times of shift of moral, professional and spiritual values in our society and in me? I supported in myself the “currency” that I thought had the biggest value.
And what now?
For the last year several big changes have happened to me:
- It became interesting to assert myself professionally, without male help. Actually no, of course with help, support … but still ME.
- Looking at myself in the mirror, I see first – a person. A fun person. I realize that when I am reviewing my films, I pay more attention to what I project, my confidence, openness, and truthfulness rather than seeing what I look like.
- It is interesting, exciting, and nourishing for me to develop my skills in psychology, in making interviews, including a strong physical health and other skills and qualities that I need to realize my dream to make movies – spiritual journeys.
The focus has changed from my appearance to intelligently following my dreams. Of course, I do not mind being slender, healthy and well-groomed. This is important! But my attention, interest and focus – is not blocked by this anymore.