How do I know that I am overweight? December 20, 2011. Moscow
“We may be floating on Tao, but there is nothing wrong with steering. If Tao is like a river, it is certainly good to know where the rocks are.” Deng Ming-Dao
This question may sound a little strange. Of course there are facts and medical standards. My doctor says that my weight 65 -68 kg, measuring 171cm, at the age of 40 – 50 is ok. According to calculations taken from my childhood (my height minus 100 minus 10kg) my ideal weight should be 60kg.
Feeding my data into a table at a popular website I learned that:
My body-weight index is 23.3
What does that mean?
Congratulations! My weight is within the norm and close to the ideal!
Medical science considers I have no risk for my health if my weight is within the limits: from 55.9 kg up to 75.4 kg.
Ideal weight according to overseas standards:
Metropolitan Standards for Ideal Weight tables in adult men and women were created in 1959. According to them, my ideal weight should be 63.5 kg.
That formula of the ideal weight fits women better whose height is from 140cm to 169 cm.
In network based mass media they give different calculations of the ideal weight.
Usually in Russia, they use the formula from the 1970’s.
According to it, my ideal weight is 62.3 kg.
However, a more exact formula was produced later by Doctor Robinson. It fits women better. According to him, my ideal weight should be 60.8 kg.
But my health was never a concern yet.
And how do I know that I weigh too much? Whatever gave me that idea?
- The feedback was especially from men. It was the very first signal at my young age. I noticed: men LOOK at me with big interest when my weight is about 60- 63 kg. If my weight becomes more, men get neutral, uninterested.
- From the looking at the mirror. I like my appearance at 60-63kg regardless of clothes, hairdo and cosmetics. If the weight increases, I see myself as not pretty or unattractive, no matter what I wear.
- When my weight gets over 66kg , my body proprioception feels unpleasant, too heavy and lumpy, as if I am a mountain. My movements become less graceful, a bit clumsy.
But how did this question of weight become so painful to me??? Why has it become the reason of my daily sufferings, depressions, dislike of my own self? The issue of being overweight bugs me seriously! What’s wrong with me?!
SUBTOTAL!!! I have hypotheses for two main directions of my inner work research:
- The most ‘problematic’ thing I’ve got is the “visual image”. The second concern is the feeling of weight, heaviness and size. It’s interesting. As a psychologist I think I have to expect some break-through in the area of visual experience and something about heaviness – lightness in life, experiencing myself as a big or small.
- I noticed already in my reports that I am constantly looking at myself “from the outside perspective”. Who actually is looking? I need to explore my social culture, how social stereotypes influence me. I need to explore my relationship with men especially. I will need to pay more attention to How I look at this WORLD and How the WORLD looks at me.
- And I’ll also take time for classical coaching, weight control and food control methods. According to medical indexes, I have no anorexia. And from medical studies I know that metabolic processes naturally get degraded with age. So I will have to pay attention to my food, watch my habits and possibly to change my physical activity behavior…