Losing Weight Journal

Day dreams. A Movie. August 2012. California

Since I was a child, I always felt I had no talent. But now, I realize that I’ve got a talent to see a person, to feel him/her «beyond» gender, race, culture, age. I have got the talent to express the things that are not accepted by society, even if those are very strange and difficult to understand in the beginning. I have got the talent to trust strange occurrences, happenings, people and unfold this to bring it into reality, out in the open in a positive way.

I’ve already mentioned that somehow I get very inspired by videos and TV programs… and generally media-products. They are powerful, very powerful. And I do not like how this power is used by the majority of TV programs.  Watching TV frightens and confuses me, make me self-conscious. It makes me distrustful and angry. Yes, the whole point of journalism is to show the truth or some part of it, to create more understanding. But often they create fear. I do not think it’s helpful.

I remembered the strength and braveness of my Lara the Bird. I opened my arms as though I was floating over the ocean and mountains. A sense of oneness with the whole earth gave me a powerful feeling of love in my chest. Great feeling! I decided to ask myself an important question, being in this state. How to apply my life experience and talents, my taste for life, my Meta Skills, curiosity, all the things I’ve discovered about myself… to a project?

… It would be definitely a movie. No, I like it to be persistent — a serial. Movies-adventures about lost cultures and spiritual knowledge discovery, my own self-discovery as well… … «The things we fight and the things we search for – are our itinerary in life». Those would be Lara-the Bird’s shamanic adventures.  Shamanic in a meaning that  She (I)  would travel,  guided by dreams, signs, magic coincidences as well as a sparky pleasure of going beyond …

And how about losing weight?

That’s what I wish to lose weight FOR. No, not actually to lose weight :)….. To be in good fit: physical and emotional. To be strong and enduring though light and flexible…
I found a post on Facebook today. A group of people who film tribes around the world, traveling and learning about them.  This idea is very similar to my dream of a movie or a program.- traveling adventures in different cultures. I talked to my movie friends about it. And Road Trip films happen to be quite a popular format.

But what is my vision for it? How would I use my media –power?

There should be very important details in my ‘visionary quest’ movie -:

• The movie itself and the trip should start with a «problem, issue,    “imperfection”☺)»  and the trip itself should become like shamans say –a “hunt”, search for Answers and Solutions.  But not only intellectual ones.  Answers should come from experience, from meeting the unknown.
• The roads should go through geographical places and through different spiritual traditions.
• We need to invite local people to be in it as well as spirits of the lands. How? I do not know yet. But it’s an important point.
• I would be the producer as well as the leader of the group and facilitator.
• It could be fun if a part of the trip could take place in «our» European world as well.
• The filming team should also be in the picture and participate in the learning. It will help us to tune to each other and dream our film together.

I wish to involve the audience, touch them with feelings, “seduce” them into learning the world. I hope to create more understanding and appreciation for alien cultures, to stretch cultural boundaries. My boundaries and others!   …This films needs to have a loving attitude for the World at large. I want it to big a tasty, colorful, great salad with chili and garlic!

Writing about my visions, I just remembered a friend — a businessman from London, who by coincidence also just moved to Geneva … when he was young he studied meditation and went to Burma and became a monk. Hmmmm…Burma-monks-meditation taste… I should talk to him in September, and also suggest this film idea to my friends/TV people… And also, my husband’s partner’s wife is a real Cambodian princess…Wow…Princess-Cambodia-temples… Back to the roots taste… And also…
I will write letters- ideas to everyone today!!!!!!!